Day by day

I realized today that I have good days and bad days. I feel like sometimes I take a step backwards in my recovery because those habits are still there. Today, it was about analyzing. I tend to analyze everything and sometimes my conclusion are correct and sometimes they are not. I know that it is something I learned for protection. Protection from abuse and heartbreak. But I don’t need protection anymore if I trust HP and realize I don’t have control over anything but me. Also, I have the tools now. I called my sponsor to talk it out with her. Wow, was that valuable. She said when you have days like that, don’t beat yourself up over it. You are Gods child and are beautiful inside and out.. You deserve love and deserve to be loved just like everyone else on this planet. We are all the in this together and we all make mistakes. You are no better or worse then anyone else. My biggest challenge is going to be loving myself. I realize that now. By the way not takiing myself seriously only lasted a day. (I laugh about it, so Cyndi)