Faith

I think my hp wants me to talk about faith. All the shows I watched yesterday had a faith theme. And people have been asking me how I have faith. I try and listen to what hp wants me to look at and write about. It is something I struggled with when I was doing steps 1-3. I really had to look at my beliefs and come to terms with what they were. I have a very interesting background in religion. I went to a catholic school even though I wasn’t Catholic. My father was a Buddhist and was really into transcendental mediation. I was basically raised mediating with a mantra and doing yoga. My mother was a Methodist and we went to her church. The one gift my mother and father gave me was they said explore faith and religion because it’s personal. And I did explore it. Went to different churches and explored Wicca. I was saved in high school but later was turned off to religion because I found out my mother was the mistress of my pastor. I thought it was very hypocritical because he was married with children and preaching against sin. So, I was Agnostic for a couple of years. Always, I was spiritual though. After I had kids I kind of lost my connection to my high power because I was too busy with them. I forgot myself really. The program helped me to try to get that back. I didn’t fully get the connection back until I started trusting. People have asked me how I keep faith when bad things happen. I have to trust that there’s a higher plan for me and I just can't see it yet. And that other people are also involved in HP plan.. If I lose someone to death I know I will see them again and it’s what was meant to be. That it was perfection and what was planned for that soul. I guess my faith stems from all the exploring I have done about religion. And I’ve kind of taken the best piece from each for me to use.