Just for Today

Last night someone read my blog and said they were irritated by my finger pointing. They said I know your alanon but take responsibility for you. Stop pointing fingers at others and blaming them for you problems. Now I could have taken that personally and really dwelled on it. Obsessed about it and got manic about it. This is what I would have done in the past. But I didn’t. In fact it didn’t even hurt my feelings and I didn’t obsess about it. Which is amazing and shows me how far I have come in my recovery. I said I will think on it. And I put it out there for hp. I figured if this is something I should work through then hp will tell me. And of course, today, I went to a meeting and the topic was choices we make. I open the Just for Today book under choices and lo and behold pointing fingers is the discussion. Well, I guess hp wants me to look at that today. It said pointing fingers is a choice I can make. But that it usually leads to resentment and bad feelings. And that forgiveness is a choice too. I think I need to stop pointing fingers and saying; "I’m like this because of my dad, my sister, my active alcoholic husband". I’m where I am today because I choose to be healthy or unhealthy. I choose to either dwell on the past or take it one day at a time. So I decide today that I will not point fingers. And I hope, if I do point fingers, someone calls me on it.