Step Four asks you to look honestly at yourself. That is hard because honesty has not been with me for a very long time. I have lied and been lied too. Many lies I’m just finding out about. Sometimes I think I must have really been naïve to believe the lies so easily. Sometimes I wonder how naïve the person I lied too had to have been, to believe my bullshit. How can I look myself, honestly, when I’ haven’t been honest? I guess that’s what step 1-3 is for. To ask your HP to help you through the rest of the steps. I know that I need to forgive myself for lying. For the things I’ve done because of my illness and move on. I know that my HP understand why I lied and forgives me and so I can too. I will take it one day at a time being honest and not lying to myself and others.