The Pit

It’s interesting that you can dig yourself a huge pit with a big shovel called fear and insecurity. That you can dig it so deep that you fall in. And realize that it is a dark, lonely, place and you need to get out. You work yourself up, slowly because you keep falling back in, but you don’t give up. You keep reaching for HP. And finally, you see the light, and feel the warmth on your face. You get the connection again and wham! Someone, that is not in recovery, tries to push you back in the pit. Blames you for the way they are feeling. Blames you and the program and for resisting going down that hole again. But you go back to the tools, the things you have learned in recovery and decide that you are not going down in that hole again today. And you stay strong to fight, so that it’s your choice to go down there again not someone elses. And you able to stay out of the pit of pity, fear and self loathing for another day.