Quiet Growth

I had a birthday, recently, and traditionally my mother and younger sister get together and have a girls night out. It felt different this time around. I looked into their eyes and I had overwhelming feeling of gratitude. And I told them both how grateful I was to have them in my lives. I have always been close to them but now I tell them how much I appreciate them. I realized how much I have grown in the last year. Recovery is a day by day work in progress. Changes take place slowly, and quietly. Because progress is so slow and gentle I I didn’t realize I had changed very much. But my sister and mother did. They said that I was really depressed and unhappy on my last birthday and it was good to see me laugh and enjoy life again. I have changed and found my inner glow again. I realize I have become this person because of my hard work and following the program’s suggestions. Going to meetings, reading literature etc.. I also realize that my Higher Power has a huge role in my ability to let things just be what they are. I trust now that I am loved and forgiven and on the right path if I’m actively involved in my quest for happiness. I’m am looking forward to the person I will be on my next birthday.