Celebrate

Sometimes when you let a situation that is bothering you, just be for awhile, and don’t jump to assumptions and conclusions, it works itself out. Many times my perception of reality is a little tweaked. I tend to analyze and come to the wrong outcome. I always do this and sometimes I make it worse that way. I feel like a drug addict that has “gone back out” when I go back to those sick behaviors. I really would like to stop doing this, but how? Yesterday, I tried to work it out in my head, make amends and let it go. I kept praying for serenity and giving it to hp. So hard! I need to call my sponsor more I just feel that sometimes my issues seem petty to me. Silly and stupid. But again that is my warped sense of reality. I know she wouldn’t feel that way. If it’s bothering me, it’s something that needs to be worked out. I need to focus on baby steps. Not try to change all my behavior at once. My therapist reminds me, every time we meet, how far I have come since January. I tend to blow off the accomplishes I have made and focus on what still needs work. But how can I approach the next issues if I don’t celebrate the healthy work I just did? I can’t, so today I celebrate my independence, and my love for hp. And I look around and focus on what I am so grateful for and not what I still have to work on. Just for today!