God Wants me to be Happy

Does God want us to be happy? I think that our definition of Higher Power or God is very personal. My god/goddess loves me unconditionally and wants me to be happy but gives me the choice to be unhappy if I want to be. And when I’m ready to surrender and ask for help, folds me back into his /her loving arms for comfort. I sometimes feel like a stubborn child telling the world that I know how to do it. I don’t need help. And when I fall flat on my face and run to my HP for comfort for a skinned knee, or in my case a bruised ego, a lost job, an expectation that wasn’t fulfilled, I fall into my HP arms I start to be happy again. Why do I continue to try to take the control back? Lose the trust? I guess it’s the nature of my disease. I know best because I have always taken control and “fixed” things. But I remind myself if it was truly fixed, why do I feel like shit? And why do I feel so much better when I let Hp work it out for me? Thank God/Goddess for the 12 step program. It has helped me find my way to my Hp’s loving arms. And showed me how to live my live. Without control and with trust in my HP. I do believe God wants us to be happy because she/he loves us I know that now.