Doubt

How do you know when you make a huge decision if it’s right or not? I have been struggling with the choices I have made lately and if they are the right path to take.. Choices that are affecting my life and others around me in a huge way. I feel like I’m creating sadness around me. Yet, if I don’t I am sad. I feel selfish and guilty. And I think about sacrificing my happiness for those around me. Then I realize if I’m not happy how can the people in my life be happy? More pain more suffering. I know that fear is the basis for my questioning the choices I’m making. I am scared that what I am doing is wrong but fear is something I created to protect myself when I was a child. And at this point my fear could make me stay unhealthy. I truly understand the serenity prayer now. God grant me peace over my helplessness, courage to change how I feel and wisdom to know it’s the right path. I know I have to take care of me. And in the process those around me will find happiness too.