I have been looking at my past lately and some not so nice things I may have done. Someone said to me you’re a good woman doing bad things. I could really take that to heart. But that is someone’s interpretation. A judgment made against me without really knowing me. And really not knowing what “bad things” I was supposed to be doing. I stopped and asked myself. Am I doing bad things? And if I am what are they and why? I’m trying to look at myself honestly and what I have done in the past. And yes there was one really bad thing that I will have to forgive myself for. And I have told small lies to protect myself. and others feelings. And I have done some "things" because of my codependency. But I'm not really sure if they would be what I would define as "bad." I could be disllusional but "bad" is really subjective. My sponsor says, Cyndi, you are no better and no worse then anyone else on this planet. Especially anyone with the disease of addiction or codependency. Now I already knew this within myself because who knows me better then Cyndi! But it’s nice to hear it from someone who knows me. And I choose to forgive myself and the things I have done that I may or may not view as bad. Because my Hp has forgiven me and loves me anyway. And that’s really what I want in my life people that forgive me and love me anyway!